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{/veni, vidi, vici!
8.30.2007 ( 10:43 PM )

I conquered hell season! Cheeeeers. :)



{/regrets this early?
8.22.2007 ( 9:29 AM )

All this business going on makes me feel guilty.

But it's a lose-lose situation, I don't really have much choice..

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{/meeting again for the first time
8.20.2007 ( 3:06 AM )

Couldn't resist. Paul suggested that I do my buddy date writeup in a "blog entry" format, then I post it here too. Less effort. So here's the exact same thing I'll be submitting (minus the pics, it ruins the format here):

Before this, all I knew about my buddy Carisse was that her full name is Krisanta Carissa Vila, she’s currently a third year BAPA student and her mobile number is 0906XXXXXXX. I never really had the chance to get to know her since we rarely catch up with each other at the tambayan, and we only used text messaging for important updates and such, so it wasn’t really an option for some getting-to-know-your-buddy. Thank heavens for buddy dates.

Our double buddy date with Ate Vane and Jeza was scheduled to meet at 11AM at Trinoma, but it was already 10:45 when I got up. The cool weather seemed to make me want to stay in bed a little longer. Anyhow, seeing as I can’t possibly meet her on time, I sent her a text message, apologizing in advance that I was going to be late. She replied at once, saying it was okay, and that Ate Vane was coming late too so it wasn’t really a problem.

I got there around 11:30 already, and Ate Carisse and Ate Vane were at National Bookstore. I felt really guilty for them having to wait for us applicants (since Jeza wasn’t there yet too), but they seemed totally nonchalant about it and I’m thankful for that.

When Jeza arrived, we left the bookstore, and we were discussing where to go next when I told them about the All Flip-Flops outlet at Trinoma - the existence of which they apparently didn’t know of. They seemed overly thrilled at idea, being Havaianas enthusiasts themselves. We just enjoyed combing through the racks, seeing nice designs, trying pairs on, and getting some sort of sugar rush. We all had our list of “must-haves” by the time we left the store. It would’ve been a whole lot better if we had cash with us.

We decided to have lunch afterwards at Teriyaki Boy. That was where the actual getting-to-know thing began. We started with the basics – family background, hometown, acad-related stuff. And as the minutes went by, how can we miss the topic about love life? I guess this comes naturally when girls get together. Our talks vaguely sounded like Friendster surveys (“Ano ang pinakamasakit na nasabi sa’yo ng isang lalaki?”) and we just found ourselves bursting into laughter every now and then. And our bill amounted to almost P900, but me and my co-app Jeza paid only P200 each and our buddies split the rest between them. We’re lucky to get such generous buddies.

Searching for something fun and worthwhile activity to spend the afternoon with, we went to TimeZone with plans of getting into a karaoke booth. But when we got there, all studios were packed, so we waited, hoping that those people using the karaoke would get out pretty soon. After quite a long time, we abandoned our post and decided to go window-shopping instead. We went to various clothing shops – and could you imagine, Barbie? We were so laughing at ourselves then, a group of teenage girls wanting to buy Barbie dolls.

We got bored after sometime and we really, really wanted to go sing with the karaoke so we went back to TimeZone, and waited. We sat in some arcade game booth when Ate Vane spotted “Credits: 1” on the screen. Free credits! So we were in for a free round of Star Trek: Voyager. Cool. And it happened again, this time we got to play some train game thing for free.

After waiting yet again, we finally got into a karaoke booth. And we sure did sing our lungs out. Two microphones came with a karaoke so we did some of the songs in duets. It was totally fun. We spent more or less two hours there, on a P200 budget (P9 per song), to which they treated us again! Very generous indeed.

And of course, can we ever forget camwh*ring? Check out http://supervillainess.multiply.com/photos/album/10/Buddy_bonding for proof.

I came home a bit tired that day but I sure did have fun. And I got to know my buddy better. In the end, this buddy date wasn’t just a requirement to accomplish for the application process, but it also paved the way for me to know my buddy better than I would have known her if we didn’t do this. It’s like meeting her again for the first time.

Greet me today! We just turned three months. :)

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{/angst against MNG and the world
8.19.2007 ( 9:54 PM )

The thing I hate most about being a petite is how I can't find my size in clothes and shoes, therefore limiting my options. Bitch.


After all that I've seen and been through, I resolve never to settle for the mediocre. Never.

Things aren't always easy, but still it wouldn't hurt to try.

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{/typhoon egay: hero or villain?
8.17.2007 ( 10:30 AM )

I can't really decide whether this suspension of classes is good or bad.

Good: submission of requirements are delayed..yet again and less expenses since I'm just staying at home.

Bad: my plans for this week, this weekend, and for the early part of next week got ruined. T.T

Plus I'm stuck here at home without any food.

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( 1:02 AM )

It's crazy the way you eagerly anticipate seeing someone and then dread the last moments of that meeting because you know you're gonna badly miss being with that person and it'll be a long wait to see him again. Or worse, you aren't really sure when.

If things were just simple.

But then it wouldn't be as fulfilling. :)



{/This is a secret.
8.16.2007 ( 3:08 AM )

Be quiet, okay? I included my cousin's blog to my links list. She doesn't know. Haha. We're not really close so I figured linking her blog to mine would seem just plain weird. She's a writer and I'm into her works so I've taken to stalking her online recently. Hahaha. Oh and she's really good at Photoshop, she posts some of her stuff there too. I check it out from time to time.

PS Did I mention that we live under the same roof? :)



{/detached, confused, just utterly lost.
8.15.2007 ( 9:36 PM )

Sigh. I feel so detached. In Ma'am Rubin's terms, probably "tiwalag sa paligid".

I've known them practically all my life, and yet, I haven't grown on them. Our lives never got as intertwined as they were supposed to be. Well, to an extent, yes, but just because we had to. We've been bestowed the responsibility, hence we have no choice. Roles dictated by society. No questions asked because it's the fucking status quo.

And yet, and yet, after all these years I've almost always been deviant. Deviant from imposed rules. Selective of what to follow and what to disregard. And eventually I got to set my own standards of right and wrong. Or maybe not - as Nicki of One Tree Hill puts it, maybe it's not all black and white, there's always a gray area. There's always such a thing as context.

And that's what they don't understand. They're just unsure of the extent to which they could subjugate this perverted punk kid so they had to resort to being authoritarian. No reasons, no explanations called for. No complaints will be entertained.

And that made the matter just worse. If I were a robot who couldn't think for itself or feel, it would be easier. But I had an opinion of my own, and it had its manifestations in my behavior later on. They would always tell me, "Mas marunong ka pa.." but then I daresay that my means would suit me better than theirs. Again, it's not good or bad, right or wrong. I dunno. I was brought up in such strange ideology that even I question them. A liberal could never ever be at peace with conservatives.

But how could a person become a liberal if she was brought up by two conservatives?

Oh hello, nature vs nurture.

When did I learn to question higher authority? It's something even Freud's unconscious won't be able to make sense of. And yes, even that Higher Authority. This is something I don't tell a soul about, as in not one single soul, because I don't have the reasons. I know this is gonna take a whole lot of explaining, it'll rain why's, and I just don't have the answer. Or maybe I just can't put abstract emotions (kaya nga abstract) into words. I dunno. I just hate doing something halfheartedly, I'd probably prefer not to do it at all.

Back to what I was saying. Darn it. It sucks when people are so narrow-minded and prejudiced that they fail to consider many factors that may have influenced a situation. They tend to conclude and assume at the outset and they fail to realize what the hell is going on beneath the superficial. They think the world is all about them. And me, maybe.

Don't get me wrong. I'm not some ungrateful angsty brat (at least I don't think so). I'm just confused. And lost.

How can such grownups be so immature?

Argh. I am so not making sense again.

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{/random filler again
8.13.2007 ( 8:44 PM )

Aba. Busy-busyhan. May panahon pa magblog. Got tagged by Emmyrose.

What Your Hands Say About You

You are logical, analytical, and rational. You have good verbal skills.

Bold and daring, you're not afraid to change your life if you think it needs an overhaul.

Practical and down to earth, you're a doer not a dreamer. You rather get something done than think about it all day.

Your emotions tend to be relaxed and uncomplicated. You don't read too much into things.
What Do Your Hands Say About You?

I like the "you don't read too much into things" part. So me. Bring on the pseudo-pessimist revolution.


I'm updating the previous post soon. More requirements to come. Oooh.



{/why planners are so useful
( 10:43 AM )


Aug 14: reaction paper on Pasyon ni Kristo for Fil25
Aug 15: seminar on HIV/AIDS for SocSci3; buddy date
Aug 16: special assignment paper for MS1; quiz for Psych; UP vs UST
Aug 17: sigsheet, buddy fee, buddy date writeup
Aug 18: UP vs ADMU
Aug 22: formal interview
Aug 23: group paper for MS1
Aug 24: group report for Fil25; Friday Film Bar: Manila By Night
Aug 25: UP vs DLSU
Aug 28: paper on bayan for Fil25
Aug 30: UP vs FEU
Aug 31: group paper for Film12
Sept 1: UP vs UE
Sept 2: field trip for MS1
Sept 6: UP vs AdU
Sept 9: UAAP Cheering Competition
Sept 14: group report for Film12
Sept 17: research paper for SocSci3
Sept 19: Quiapo tour for SocSci3
Sept 24: long exam for SocSci3


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8.09.2007 ( 3:23 AM )

Got this from Zach. Thought this Crush Calculator was your usual oh-so-highschool thing, but all I could say is IT SO FREAKING WORKS. Click ahead, try it out. :)

PS I got so struck that I actually had to post an entry for this instead of just adding it to the links list. Hahaha.



{/One down!
8.07.2007 ( 8:52 PM )

Had my informal interview today, first batch. Went well I guess, thank you. I could really laugh at myself for the extra-eager preparations I've been doing. It turned out low-key after all.

(Gotta take extra care here, the mems warned us not to spill anything as the app interviews aren't over yet. Haha.)

I was with Jam, Camille and Arcel. We had a pretty large audience, andaming mems shet. I actually had fun, with the pressure and all. Kulit din ng mems eh. I only hope we had them amused in a good way. My buddy Carisse was there, I made sure to pick a sched for the interview kung kelan free din xa. Baka apihin ako ng mems, para naman may magtanggol sakin. Hahaha kidding. So supportive, salamat salamat.

Badtrip lang wala kong talent. All three of em did some dance number, and I sure as hell can't dance (tell me again why? Haha). I did some song number instead, and launched into a short discussion with Kuya Hans about the emo movement right after it. F*cking labels. But still, fun. :)

And I might add..cuz of that civil stat thing in the sigsheet, kilala na boyfriend ko sa Circa. (Kuya Clark: Onga eh, sinundo pa xa nung TBA..) And I'm not even a member yet. Haha.

Bottomline is, there, it's over and done with. One down. Congratulations to me. Hope I can get in. :)


I heart the weather. It'd be so nice to just curl up in bed with a good book and listen to the rain outside (which means I've to take out Like Water for Chocolate outta the CAL Lib's Reserve Section).

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{/On Shit and Religion
( 2:17 AM )

Found this on Francis M's Multiply, and I just couldn't wait till morning to post. Shet panalo.

Close-to-complete Ideology and Religion Shit List

  • Taoism: Shit happens.
  • Confucianism: Confucius say, "Shit happens."
  • Buddhism: If shit happens, it isn't really shit.
  • Zen Buddhism: Shit is, and is not.
  • Zen Buddhism #2: What is the sound of shit happening?
  • Hinduism: This shit has happened before.
  • Islam: If shit happens, it is the will of Allah.
  • Islam #2: If shit happens, kill the person responsible.
  • Islam #3: If shit happens, blame Israel.
  • Catholicism: If shit happens, you deserve it.
  • Protestantism: Let shit happen to someone else.
  • Presbyterian: This shit was bound to happen.
  • Episcopalian: It's not so bad if shit happens, as long as you serve the right wine with it.
  • Methodist: It's not so bad if shit happens, as long as you serve grape juice with it.
  • Congregationalist: Shit that happens to one person is just as good as shit that happens to another.
  • Unitarian: Shit that happens to one person is just as bad as shit that happens to another.
  • Lutheran: If shit happens, don't talk about it.
  • Fundamentalism: If shit happens, you will go to hell, unless you are born again. (Amen!)
  • Fundamentalism #2: If shit happens to a televangelist, it's okay.
  • Fundamentalism #3: Shit must be born again.
  • Judaism: Why does this shit always happen to us?
  • Calvinism: Shit happens because you don't work.
  • Seventh Day Adventism: No shit shall happen on Saturday.
  • Creationism: God made all shit.
  • Secular Humanism: Shit evolves.
  • Christian Science: When shit happens, don't call a doctor - pray!
  • Christian Science #2: Shit happening is all in your mind.
  • Unitarianism: Come let us reason together about this shit.
  • Quakers: Let us not fight over this shit.
  • Utopianism: This shit does not stink.
  • Darwinism: This shit was once food.
  • Capitalism: That's MY shit.
  • Communism: It's everybody's shit.
  • Feminism: Men are shit.
  • Chauvinism: We may be shit, but you can't live without us...
  • Commercialism: Let's package this shit.
  • Impressionism: From a distance, shit looks like a garden.
  • Idolism: Let's bronze this shit.
  • Existentialism: Shit doesn't happen; shit IS.
  • Existentialism #2: What is shit, anyway?
  • Stoicism: This shit is good for me.
  • Hedonism: There is nothing like a good shit happening!
  • Mormonism: God sent us this shit.
  • Mormonism #2: This shit is going to happen again.
  • Wiccan: An it harm none, let shit happen.
  • Scientology: If shit happens, see "Dianetics", p.157.
  • Jehovah's Witnesses: >Knock< >Knock<>
  • Jehovah's Witnesses #2: May we have a moment of your time to show you some of our shit?
  • Jehovah's Witnesses #3: Shit has been prophesied and is imminent; only the righteous shall survive its happening.
  • Moonies: Only really happy shit happens.
  • Hare Krishna: Shit happens, rama rama.
  • Rastafarianism: Let's smoke this shit!
  • Zoroastrianism: Shit happens half on the time.
  • Church of SubGenius: BoB shits.
  • Practical: Deal with shit one day at a time.
  • Agnostic: Shit might have happened; then again, maybe not.
  • Agnostic #2: Did someone shit?
  • Agnostic #3: What is this shit?
  • Satanism: SNEPPAH TIHS.
  • Atheism: What shit?
  • Atheism #2: I can't believe this shit!
  • Nihilism: No shit.

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{/very random
8.03.2007 ( 4:12 PM )

I figured out how to get to Ninoy Aquino Stadium from UP all on my own. Therefore I realized I had a sense of direction. :)


I should've done something but I've done it enough, by the way your hands were shaking rather waste some time with you. Should've said something but I said it enough, by the way my words were faded rather waste my time with you.

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{/filler drama
( 1:48 AM )

Oh, this sucks.

I feel sick inside and out.

I'm getting my consolation tomorrow anyway.

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